2013 was a beautiful mess.
The year started out with me crashing at my sister's house, while my cat crashed at my other sister's house. This continued for months.
I would lie if I said those first few months weren't hard. New Year's day I didn't even want to get out of bed, I wanted to wake up from the nightmare I thought I was in.
The following months brought lots of heartache as I dealt with change and the emotions I was dealing with. I remember one such day bawling my eyes out at the doctor asking for anxiety and depression medication. I thought that was my way out.
After that came months of building myself back up.
I moved out.
Enrolled at ASU.
Promotion at work to manager.
Bought myself a new car.
And I stopped my medications.
Lily's parent also separated at the beginning of the year. And although it was a shock at first, it has been quite an easy transition. But that's a story for another day.
The year ended strong, and happy. It reminded me of so many other hard years and times where there was always light at the end of the tunnel. Life is silly like that, we all have hard times, but we all have smooth times afterwards.
Here's to a strong start to a new year.
Life's a beautiful mess.
cause i sure don't know whats next
but that's life you got to be ready
for anything.
and some how knowing that you can
get through it you push yourself
to what you can be.
loving yourself even when
it seems like nobody else does
that only you have your back
we all have those times in our life
when we would rather not get out of bed.
that laying there curled up in a ball crying your
eyes out is all you can do
you push your self one step further
cause you know you are better than that
that even if the cards you got played
are nothing more than some crappy hand
that you can win with it
because you have that strength
the strength you built over the
long hard years.
you enjoy life and deal with situations
you think you can never bring yourself
up out of.
but there is a sunny side of the situation
you have to push yourself through the
hard pouring rain,, the storm that never seems
to end
and that flood that is built up around you
just waiting to swallow you up if you'll let it
but don't you're stronger than that
you got the sun shining through your smile
and it'll dry that flood up
your laughter brings the rays
and someday
it'll be bright and sunny again
only if you make it that way