Moment of weakness

As a sat in a class today the teacher talked about a subject that I cringe about each time it is brought up. I sat there as he went on for five minutes not sure if everyone was staring at me or if I just felt bad about myself. Either way I didn't feel happy. I tried to block him talking out, as I hoped I could continue on my day without feeling like the whole world was staring at me. But in reality that was impossible. I listened, I stared him in the eyes, and I thought about the events of the last two years. I then stared down at my desk still unsure if people were staring at me, but I was sure my name was popping through their heads. Class ended and I slowly walked out in a gaze. A kid stopped me, gave me a big hug, and asked how I was doing. I felt like he knew how I was feeling and offered up friendship when nobody else would. It was just what I needed in a moment of weakness whether he knew it or not.

12/12/09

"The original, the only Valley Cheer Dynamics"

Emotions

Recipe to hurt a Birthmom

Take one birthmom
And a room full of people
Let them ask questions like "why would you do that?"
Or tell her that she is better off
Until you can see the pain in her eyes
Then place the birthmom all alone
Watch as her emotions chop her up
Bake this situation up for a few minutes on an already emotionally hard day
Until you hear her cry
Then you know you have accomplished the task
Let stand alone for 10 minutes
Tastes completely horrible
Can work on nearly every birthmom.

Understanding

I don't understand

     why dating is difficult

     why love can end

     why people can be so silly

But most of all

     why people can not see the pain

     why change is so hard

     why I can't tumble

     why I am so different

What I understand most is

     why I am happy

     why change is needed

     what love is

Journey

A journey lies ahead

Where I am going I am not quite sure

The world around me is constantly changing

Sometimes I feel really scared

I ask myself "what now?"

My sister reassures me that I can do anything

Sometimes it feels like I am falling

Life is passing by me

I can never accomplish my goals

Things aren't going quite right

Then I open my eyes

This journey is a great ride