Cambria Leann

Saturday, July 18, 2009

12 months

"when someone hurts you so much that your feelings seem to choke you, forgive ...and you will be free again."
Lately I have pondering the forgiving of a few people in my life that have hurt me very much. I am unsure about what to do, if I am even ready to forgive them.

On another note:

This month marks a year since I began the journey of adoption, when I made the first few steps.. serving the birth father, and searching for a family..
I searched back and forth. Arizona, California, and neighboring states. In all sizes of families, and with all different hobbies. I watched as faces seemed to pass me. Through many lists of possibles, I feel like there was one that drew me in. I finally decided to email three, because I want to ensure myself. I got three emails back a few days later. One I read fully, the other two didn't draw me in. I can't even remember what they said, but they didn't make me glow, like the other one did. I ended up sending one email back that day, and only emailing this family. Emailing this family became addicting. Every day many times a day I would check my email, have they emailed me back?, what are we going to talk about next?, this family is so amazing and nice! I believe I was lead to them.

I believe all things were made to be a certain way as long as you listen. And I have watched many familiar faces receive their answers to their prayers by the one who was guided to them.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

3 weeks left

The last week and a half has been a big blur..
I am in and out of class all day long.
I feel like all I do is EAT SLEEP MATH,funny thing is that the program made shirts that say this.
I am writing this on a qucik break between taking a final for my online class, and going to chee practice that I have missed despertley! I was super sad I couldn't go last week.
But I am alive and moving, and have made it through almost 2 weeks! 3 more to go!

Main things on my mind when I am not doing 10 hours of math include,

College? -Where am I going to go.. what am I going to do?
Lily's amazing family! -I can't believe she's fully crawling! I hope the farm is well!
My family- this week I have called my Dad a few time just because I want to talk..
New found friendships
Dreams- Why do I keep waking up in the middle of them?,, I feel bad for everyone who keeps telling me they are dreaming math..
Stinky - I miss my baby
Cheer - I am super sad I missed last week so glad I'm going tonight
Group- I miss all the girls!
Kendal- I feel like I haven't seen her in month

As well as others.

3 weeks and one day.. I can't believe I'm counting down...

Sunday, July 5, 2009

It'll be a busy day, but a great one.

(Part of my family in 2006)

As I speak I should be packing for ASU.. unsure about the road that lays ahead. It's kind of like the first day of school (read about my first day back at school here), but some how totally different. I am excited, just a procrastinator.. Thanks Dad!

As I currently sit here, I am waiting for the day. It shall be a special day, I can not wait!..

What is so special, you may ask? Lily is getting blessed. Sweet, Sweet Lily.