Thank you.

The past few weeks have been hard.
I've cried almost every day.
So much is going on and sometimes I feel as if I can't get a grip.
Grateful for those in my life I can always lean on with no questions asked.
When the pieces of my life continue to crumble, they are there helping me put them back.
Thank you.

My Heart Can Still Ache

Some nights are harder than others.
I would be a liar if I told you I never hurt, I never cry, I never miss, or that I never wish things were different.
Some days I don't want to do anything but lay in bed and cry.
Some days I long for that sweet little girl in my arms.
Some days I completely loose it.
And that's okay.


Even almost four years later my heart still aches in its own way.

I'm lucky

Sometimes I am reminded how I am such a lucky little lady. So happy to be in a relationship with my best friend, couldn't ask for anything better. Life is good.

Enjoying Every Moment

3 and half years ago I came home from the hospital and very shortly after my now best friend was there to visit. He was there when I was pregnant taking me out for late night drives and trips to sonic. He was there after placement when I some days I couldn't even function. I remember many nights where I would call him bawling my eyes out, only for him to come pick me up right away, so I wasn't alone. He even does that now when I am having a bad day. He was there during my weakest days, hardest times in my life, and he has always stood right beside me, no questions asked. 

As our friendship evolves into a relationship, I am constantly reminded why I am attracted to this guy, why I trust him so much. Because above all he's been the best friend I could ever ask for. And at the end of the day, even if our relationship doesn't keep progressing, I am grateful to have him there next to me as my best friend. 

Only time will tell the future. But for now I am enjoying every moment.