I walked through the motions of the last week. Not sure if I could even handle it. A few times I couldn't. I had to take a drive to the store. Stop my projects that I really want to finish. Or drive away from where I wanted to be, just so I didn't have to see another. I have drank Oreo shakes from Chee Burger. Eaten Ice cream cones. And I have busied myself in other things. But I know some how it's all going to become real. Whether it's today or in a few days. It'll become real. Knowing I can handle it is one thing. But believing is another and right now, I am not sure I believe.