Friendship.

I called my sister tonight.
I cried my eyes out, told her all my problems, and how I didn't want to keep going.
She cried with me.
A real friend.

Real friendship lies within those who always have been there,
Supports you when nobody else seems to,
And are there to listen.

I just wanted to thank all of my friends for all they do.

I love you.

Sweet Baby Face.

Kisses for you.
I love you to eternity and back.

It's strange thinking how the year mark is coming up so quickly.
How big you are.
How independent you are.
How scrumptious you are.
You are a beautiful daughter of god.

"I love to see the temple"

The last two weeks have been extremely hard in cheer.
As I have fought with my emotions.
I want this but it doesn't seem in sight.
I felt like I deserved this, but didn't receive it.

Last week I fought back tears, as I watched the one spot I really wanted be handed to someone else.
Since then I have fought with myself, and my desires to move forward.
I have since struggled with the dance, keeping up, and even having desires to do it.

On Monday during seminary my teacher challenged us to sing a primary song, or recite a scripture when we had bad thoughts or thoughts that brought us down.

I found myself singing "I love to see the temple" on Monday during practice when I got frustrated. And it helped me to concentrate and get further along.

I chose this song because of the meaning it has to me.

I have found myself a few times whisper it to Lily.

It reminds me of the eternal family Lily has. Of the struggles I have been through, and the choices I have made. Of the promises I have made to push forward through anything, because I know it is possible.
One day I want an eternal family.
I desire happiness, and without trying I only doom myself to fail.
Today I think of the last year and a half.
Thank my heavenly father.
And promise to keep pushing forward.
It can get better.

Adoption and Abortion

I know I have shared the link to this video before but I feel like it is needed to be shared itself on my page.
It means that much to me. And this girl is a dear friend of mine. Thank you for sharing.