Ready For Change

I've never once struggled in school as much as I am now. It's not so much that I'm not smart, because I know I am. But it more has to do with my professors. This semester I have clashed with every single one of my professors that I have in person. I have to force myself to get up in the morning and go to school, even though I feel like class is a waste of my time. I'm always tired, I'm always worn thin, and I'm always frustrated.

So ready for this semester to be over. So ready for change.

Dating?

Tonight my coach told me she couldn't keep track of the men in my life. 

I laughed, and told her there are no men in my life right now.

But I knew what she was talking about.

Within the last year I've sorta, kinda, "hung out" with quiet a few guys.

But to be honest, I never keep them around for long.

Not because I don't want a boyfriend.. because I certainly would like that.

But because they aren't worth my time, and I tend to realize that quiet quickly.

I don't think I will have a boyfriend again, unless I see REAL potential in the guy.

Because quiet frankly, my time, and emotions are better spent on other things..

Like School, Work, Cheer, Friends, Family, and Adoption Advocating.

Life is good.

Christmas 1995

Today I found a holiday letter my mom wrote about 18 months prior to her death. Here's what she wrote about me..

"Cambria (Cami) is the youngest. She is 2 and will be 3 in January. She is a sweet girl. Always has a smile for everyone. Everyone wants to know if she ever stops smiling. She keeps Mom busy all day while everyone is at school. We all have fun with her."

I loved reading this. I think my Mom won't be surprised that I am the same today. Love her and miss her.